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defeatinglinkingverbs:

I don’t want this to sound the wrong way. I am confident in my work, but this is not why I feel motivated to post this.

I NEED REAL CRITIQUE. Otherwise the whole process of sharing my ideas is a WASTE. I am getting very frustrated. I am insulted that no one steps up to the plate, are my ideas weak and you can’t even muster the energy to give feedback? THEN TELL ME THAT. Where are the people who don’t share my taste, I want to find you and talk to you. Where are the people who don’t care about the things I care about, I want to find you and talk to you. Where are the people who don’t like me personally or professionally, I want to find you and talk to YOU.

Because as much as I love the positive comments, that gives me NOTHING. I don’t need APPROVAL. Right now, where I am at, I would do things the way I want no matter what  as long as my decisions were educated. But I can’t see things from outside myself, and that is what I need.

I CRAVE THE H8. I THIRST FOR THE HATERADE.

I see this masochist impulse in plenty of students R.It’s so old-fashioned. I’m not sure that the old school reamming you long for is so valid these days.

Perhaps the critique of your work is in the work that someone else makes….the work that shows yours up….that totally makes it seem irrelevant.

Perhaps the apathy of those around you can be shaped and structured to greater ends. I don’t know. But pleading for the hate seems as sad-sack as begging for love. Either way it puts you in a reactive position. Looking over ones shoulder like any slave asking the master “Is this alright? Am I doing okay?” The only active mode is in making your work, experimenting….keeping your nose to the grindstone.